Bare

Did you ever had to open yourself up, completely uncover yourself? Did you ever have to unveil your being and thinking? Did you ever have to expose and uncover everything in front of a group. If you have you will understand that this sucks…

Today I had to do a presentation about myself. Not an elementary school presentation like ‘hi, my name is …, and my hobbies are…. I like this because ….’ You did have to do the presentation based on things you like. But it was more about ‘what are your qualities and what are your ‘faults”. This could have gone fairly easy, I could’ve just told the ‘story of my life’, but that wasn’t the purpose. You really had to reveal yourself, for an exam with a creative task to accompany it.

Like I said, this can be an easy assignment, but it’s a lot harder when your insecure and in a rather bad period in your life AND have to tell that to a class who are practically strangers to me. I builded my presentation in a way that the parts where I was most likely to break and cry were more to the end, so that I didn’t cry the whole time. That plan didn’t work out.

when it comes to expressing feelings I am way better at it writing about it than talking. I am more rational when it comes to writing, maybe that’s why I have less trouble sharing this all to random strangers on the internet. I wrote my text weeks ago, but somehow saying it out loud made it real, not just some thought in my head. I never realised how much of an affects some of these thoughts had untill I spoke them, for real, to a group.

Things I thought were just a strive where actually thoughts that are preventing me of doing so. I always thought that my strive to become smarter and more creative were helping me, but today I realised this is the same thought that make me feel I’m not good enough. I never realised how much this played inside my head, untill I started crying in class.

somehow the ‘support’ and compliments of my classmates (who are strangers to me) were strangely uplifting, even though they only heard part of the story. This show again that simple compliments can really make your day suck a little less.

so here is my simple compliment to you all if you having a rough day…

You are important, you do matter and you are as fabulous as a baby panda riding a rainbow coloured turtle!

Lovies 

FairyLoot unboxing

Hi everybody!

After a month of exam stress, it is finally over and I can go back to fun things! YAY! Before exams started I bought myself a christmas present, and a motivation to look forward to during exams! I ordered my first FairyLoot book box! 

Although it was a little expensive with shipping added, it was really worth buying it ! It had so many fun gadget it in, any booklover would love it! All the gadgets are related to the book or the theme of the book, so it all fits together when your finished reading the story 😀

What is in the box, you ask? Well…

The first gadget I saw was the Meraki Candle ‘COME BACK YESTERDAY’. It smells amazing! like cocoa, berries and musk, to be exact. It was named by the author herself, which make it even cooler, in my opinion.

Next there I found the Funko Mystery Mini box, I got a mini Hermione Granger!!! This was also my first Funko Pop! item I got :p

Then came jewelry!!! Oh Panda Eyes, made a beautiful rose necklace for FairyLoot. I think it’s very pretty and I really like the lock as well. It’s not a standard little one, but a big one in the same style as the rose! I love it!

To eveyone surprise… THERE WAS A SECOND BOOK!!! ‘HOW TO THINK LIKE SHERLOCK’ by Daniel Smith. In this book they explain the personaly and the mind of the great Sherlock Holmes, with actually excisiting karacter and personality theories and neuroscience. But don’t worry it’s not a schoolbook in disguise, after the scientific insights there are puzzles to help you to observe, not just to see.

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Final item before the book reveal… a beautiful pillowcase! It was placed in bed by the time I went to bed.

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BOOK BOOK BOOK!!!!

I was already hoping it would be this book. Because for some reason my whole instagram was filled with pictures of it! And I was not so secretly crossing my fingers when I opened the bag.

CARAVAL by Stephanie Garber! along with the drawing of this month’s book, Fairyscoop, the letter form the author and 2 super pretty bookmarks (which are already placed in several others books I’m reading (oops?). I’m so happy with the whole box! I’m definitely going to buy another one! Sadly it is too expensive for me to really subscribe to it every month 😦 but maybe someday I will!

I’m already writing 2 other post, and hopefully I will keep up writing regularly!

read you later!!

Lovies

 

 

 

This the season to be jolly…

Hello everybodyyy!! (sorry for the lay-out, I cant seem to fix it :/ )
Never in my life have I felt less christmassy than this year! It sucked cause I absolutely loooove Christmas spirit! I had all my stuff ready to make a christmas haul, because for some reason I had a lot of stuff. Didn’t impove the feeling though. Anyway I had all these blog ideas but literally no time.
Since this year Winterbreak turned into study season. I think I studied more in 2 weeks than I did all 7 years of high school combined. And still I’m going to fail hard. Even with my highly orginazed planning (yes, I’m one of those people, and yes I stick to it. Even worse, I’m a day ahead, you can imagine the hate of others when you tell them that :p ). So my planning AND watching Grey’s anatomy, I still don’t get it. And I have 3 subjects of anatomie, so please kill me now!
I do am proud of myself a little, because I do study as much as I can fysically handle (which is going to bed at 10pm, or I can’t function at all in the morning), and my breaks are not binge watching series, like I normally would. It was like an early new years resolution, being productive on breaks. So that means reading… the high quality literature of wattpad fanfiction, if you like Harry Potter fanfics look up kmbell92. Also I started knitting again, still nog any further than last year… just knitting patches, I can make a blanket with is, someday when I have 1000 patches. And writing as uch as I can with the limited creativity I have, during these boring times.
But studying during christmas and new year sucks really hard. Seeing my cousins get drunk, even my mum doing a shot, and you just sit there. Nah, I have to study tomorrow. And I’m saving my day for New Year (which was a good choice btw). But christmas was very fun, I got my uncle and I got each other for secret Santa and we got each other Harry Potter gifts. There was a lot of martini bellini, and it was fun seeing everybody again. But god, I can’t wait until all those children are a bit older, it’s a miracle I’m not deaf!
Then after a week of hard work, studying and liters coffee, IT WAS NEW YEAR! We all really looked forward to it. This was the second year we did this, and just like then we made food (this year was macaroni) had some drinks (waaaay less than last year, cuz studying). It was the best time of the holidays. Also did a secret santa And I got awsome gifts!Around 11pm, the boyz came (the boyfriends and their friends) wished happy newyear and left to the pub :p I was freezing my toes off!!

In my opinion studying during holiday season should be illegal, how can I znjoy my Harry Potter gifts when I have to learn. And now the holidays are almost over and I getting panicked about exams starting Monday, just hoping I won’t cry in the middle of my exam… at least wainting til I get home for that

Anyways read y’all later if my parents didn’t kill me because I failed everything! Lovies<3

Mini Dorm Tour

Hello everybody!!

It’s been a while again :/ but finally I made my Dorm Tour, very amateuristic with pictures taken with my phone… kinda temporarly unable to locate my camera at the present time. So sorry in advance for the aweful quality of my pictures, I will update my dorm tour someday when it is completly how I want it to be 😀

So here we go!

This is the place I like the most at the moment! little cactusses, that was the first thing I bought actually :p and then ofcourse, a planner! ‘cuz ESSENTIALS. My planner was personally custom made at personal-planner.com for 30 euros (might seem a lot but it’s like a cheaper somewhat less fancy version of a Lauren Condren planner which is $40 only delivery costs. SO…)

and because of my general obsession with notebooks I have several notebooks for different uses, the flamengo one on the pictures is my ‘what do I need from home’-checklist.

But my absoluut favorite is my Photowall, makes the whole room a bit more ‘home-like’. pictures of my family, my friends my vacations of this summer, and of course some of my favorite quotes and rolemodels.

The bedside is sort of empty, I need more pillows!!! but I have fairylights which are a must in a dormroom, makes every evening cozier! And what is better and a cozy night, favorite movie and some chips? all that PLUS ultra soft and fluffy panda socks from Primark!

The kitchen is a little small, but I manage :p looks super messy, litterally every space I have is taken my stuff like my oven and cooking plates, but it’s quite alright. I don’t have to share it with tons of people. So that’s handy also have my own bathroom with is seriously heaven!

And on top of the soon to be super cozy dorm room… Ghent is a very pretty city!!

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And for the people who don’t know this, Belgium isn’t a big country at all, so even to I live in a dorm in the week we all go home on the weekends. technically it isn’t so nessecary to have a dorm, but it sures makes it a hell of a lot easier! big difference between a 15 minute walk to campus than 30minute walk + 15 minute busride + 1 hour trainride and 20 minute walk to campus :p

Hope you all like this, see y’all soon

Lovies

 

Sun, Work and Vacation

Hello everybody!

I know it’s been a while… about 4 months or something, no biggie :/ Exams and vacation I’ve been pretty busy. And when I was not busy I was just straight up lazy and procrastinating everything. You know, binge-watching show living life as a true no-lifer!

But seriously, it actually was pretty busy these last months. But my vacation started amazing! Since I’m going to college in 2 weeks, I needed a place to live (ON MY OWN guess who’s gonna die!) But after months of looking and visiting places. I found one! and I think it looks amazing (at least when I’m done decorating it, expect a  dormroom dedicated blogpost!) I’ve been decorating that room in my head ever since I knew I had it!

Other from that, my first 2 weeks of being graduated from high school were calm. I had time to meet up with friends. I went to a foodtruck festival HAP, that like litterally aweosme! I had nachos, vietnamese food, american burgers, so much food!!!!!  And then I had to do all the prep work for my student job that I procrastinated as well. Prepping 2 weeks of summer daycamp can be done in 1 day if you work hard :p

And then working began! I love doing summer daycamp. It’s always fun and the kids love it. And it was 35°C so watergames!!! It was awesome. Did some cheeky little triple date in the middle of the week, cuz why not! I wish I had more weeks, but like I said pretty busy vacation.

After that couple of days to rest and binge-watch Orgfan Black (awesome show btw) And prep a little bit for my citytrip to Amsterdam with my boyfriend.
Amsterdam is so beautiful! It’s so weird it was the first time visiting, knowing it’s right next to Belgium.Anyway, it was all so cute. Lot’s of cute little streets, cheese shope, weed shops.

Okay after that I actually had two full weeks to socialise and stuff, yet I didn’t. Don’t ask me why, didn’t feel like it. I enjoyed being alone, which I hadn’t been for weeks, so it was nice. Not that I didn’t meet up at all, just not every day. Plus I had to prep for a last minute summer camp (sleepover camp so more prepping) which was the best camp ever! I think the girls loved it as well, they bought us an anckle bracelet. you don’t do that if you hated it :p

I must say my planning wasn’t that great, I left for camp 14 augustus, which was our 6 months anniversary, my boyfriend wasn’t too happy about that, I must say. And to make it a little harder, he got to see me a few hours before I left for Valencia… Like I said great planning went into that. But Valencia was worth it. with my  friends in the sea, sunbathing, walking in the old town. beautiful.

And then last week, after Valencia. I took the opportunity to be very social, like going out every day. Something my mom didn’t like and neither did my wallet :p

Next week we’re decorating my dormroom and buying my way too expensive books (And I really should not complain because College and Uni in Belguim is one of the cheapest). And then I’m starting my first year Speech Therapy and I’m freaking scared!!

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So yeah, this was a long post… told you it was a bussy summer! And i’m still forgetting thing… anyway… thanks for reading, see ya soon!

Lovies

 

Everything goes wrong

hi there!

now that I wrote mu post early I forgot to post it yesterday, SO exams are over! No studying late because I failed to start early. No stress anymore. Just relaxing, reading, shopping and decorating the house. At least until next friday when we get our grades. Let’s enjoy the time we have, shall we 😀

So exams are over, that means shopping! My friends and I had the amazing idea to go crazy and go shopping in Ghent. Everything was fine until we stepped out the train station. it was pouring rain, it was cold and we had no idea where to go. We had to take the metro, somehow. Figuring it out on our own, did not work very well. So we asked in the bus shop. “Take line 1” she said, so we did. Next problem, which stop to take. I had never been in Ghent before, so I had so idea where to get of. The moment we saw shops and cafes, we got of. Realising we got of too early we stepped further in the pouring rain to find a place to eat and dry.

We found a cosy little bistro not far and we took our time to eat. After an hour we were almost dry and it wasn’t raining anymore. We started walking, hoping to find the shops. Apparently they were just 2 streets aways. at least we know now 😉 shopping started great. And with that I mean only the start was great. First shop found some clothes, bought pants and moved on to the next one. Picked out clothes, when to the changing rooms and found out my bag wasn’t entirely closed, and my wallet was gone. So no more shopping for me 😦

But even though so many thing went wrong, we had fun and that all that counts. (And losing my wallet, prevented me from spending to much money 😉 ).

if you had finals, I hope they went well!

lovies

That time before Christmas

Hi there!

Yup, it’s that time again. the period before Christmas. And I don’t mean the holiday shopping and decorating the house. I mean exams.

that’s right, learning and studying from the moment you get home from school, until you fall asleep on your books (gives you pain in the neck and you can’t sleep comfortable for days.) But because I’ve been studying all week and preparing oral exams, I didn’t really think of something to blog :s So I’m just gonna ramble some things. (sorry in advance)

In between learning I thought about Christmas gifts. I have absolutely no idea for what to get or who I should give one. I like giving and receiving gifts, but I don’t know what others like to get. I only came up with things in jars. I’m so original.

Then another thing is, what will I eat? This is serious business. We sit at home most of the day with lots of candy and chocolate. After 3 days that will become my lunch, just because I’m too lazy to make real food. At least we’ll have proper ‘made by mom’ dinner.

And if worrying about exams isn’t stressy enough, I have to make a big decision before the end of exams. Maybe it isn’t that big of a deal but it is for me. Do you know the BBC Public Speaking Awards? if not, it’s a competition where you have to do a 5 minute speech about one of the given subjects. I really want to participate, but it’s PUBLIC speaking and I can’t even do a presentation in front of my class without dying of anxiety. But if I don’t do it I will regret it. See, it comes with coaching days and these days could really help me getting over my stage fright. DILEMMA!!! I don’t know what to do 😮

These are my three issues, have you got any ideas, tips or advise, please let me know! It would seriously help me out, a lot! Thanks!!

Lovies